the troubles

alrights... went to math class today. and we learnt about functions. it's pretty much the same thing; the only difference is that in secondary school, we don't have to fully know what the equations we write mean, but now we have to. and i did like, 40% of the homework for this week already. hahahaha. i'm so so so hardworkin.

went home after that and walked down to k mart. bought another floor lamp... and fixed it up myself. yups. hehe. but the lamp... caught fire. well, it was only a few sparks.. but it sure was scary! i ain't gonna use IKEA bulbs anymore. no.

as i mentioned before... life in seattle is a k-drama. okays, so this is how it began. i take evening classes for my micro-economics class, and it starts from 6.30 - 8.50pm. cos buses here are rare at night, don offered to pick me up from school. plus at the same time my mom was gonna go to the airport, and my mom wanted to treat him dinner as a way of thankin him for helpin me. so he picked m up from school, and i lost my way in the campus! so he parked his car and looked for me. finally met him and we started walking toward his car when.... ding2.. alvin.. michael & gang were there. worst-- ding2 was there. SH*T! she's like, one of the big mouths in my church. so if she saw me... with don... guess what kind of rumors will spread?! > <" anyways we picked up my mom and we headed off to a resto. on the way indah called me. darn. i knew ding2 would tell her. so i lied to her. told her that my mom & i took a shuttle express to the airport. it felt real bad lyin to your own friend. but i had little choice.

at the resto... i felt kinda uneasy. hm.. let's picture this out. a chinese resto in the middle of chinatown at 10pm. yeaa. and there was him, me and my mom. for a spur of the moment it felt as though he's my bf or something like that... but... i don't have any of those 'like' feelings for him. and i was real quiet cos with my mom around, i don't dare to joke around too much as i always do when only he & i were around. and then suddenly sam called me!! aww sam... so sorry man! 'll call you up tomorrow. promise =) after that we headed to the airport.

hugged my mom, and i was like, really gonna cry. knew she was too... but i guess we held it. then she told me & don to go home... so we did. but on the way home we stopped by at the alki beach. sat on the rocks and... honestly, i was happy that he was there for me. he sat beside me, cheered me up and lent me his sweater *again* while he was freezin cold! i mean it was like 7deg. C and he was only wearin a long-sleeved collar shirt with a T-shirt underneath.. then he promised to bring me up the space needle one day.. and go to some other nice places in seattle =P.

after reaching home he stopped by my room and accompanied me til 1.30am... btw i'm writing this at 2.18am... so, after all these... how do i feel about donny? wells, i don't know if it's because i'm still kinda scared of relationships.. but i still see him like a brother... a friend.. although i know when he sits/stands near me i feel a lil scared... and the pain. i could still feel it. i guess i'm just not ready for any relationships...

-apr5-