not over it

first day of driving (again), and i'm still not over the trauma. while i'm pretty calm driving on the highways (where you drive like, 60mph+), i get really jittery on the streets, and i'm super terrified and cautious of traffic lights. perhaps it's because my accident occured at a traffic light. it's really weird, cos i find myself staring constantly at the traffic lights, reminding myself of the signal every second ("green, green, it's okay, jo, green, green..... yellow! brake! yellow! brake! yellow! RED!!!") i guess it'll be a while before i get used to driving again, and by then i really pray that i'll pay attention to traffic signals better. there MUST NOT be any more second time! no more forever and ever and e v e r.